This is how we love now

No, this is not love now. You will not call this love if you have experienced love once. You will not lose hope on love, once you’ve known what love actually is. This, my love, is definitely not love now.

When you’ve understood that your relationship has the potential to live beyond commitment and marriage, that is love. When these institutions are not enough to express how you wish to be with each other, that is love. Maybe we think intimacy lies in a perfectly-executed string of emoji. Maybe effort is a “good morning” text. But when those perfectly-executed string of emojis are never enough to express yourself and you use them all the more, that is love now. When you send a “good morning” text not because you are supposed to but because you think of love, your love, as soon as you open your eyes. That is love now. When you think about the person you like before going to bed, that is love now.


When you are in a long distance relationship and you dream of welcoming that weird soul with a shower of PINK rose petals, it is love. Even though I might seem like a psycho for imagining that in my dreams, that still is love. When you dream of randomly walking with your love on a cold, shivery London street, but still feel good about that dream, that is love. Even though I come across as a freak to my beloved for saying this, it still is love. You may have lost love but it still comes back to you in these unusual ways and reminds you that it is here, around you now.

When your soul is touched by that one person without looking into each other’s eyes, that is love now and always will be. Even if you do not end up answering each other’s call and wish to talk to each other endlessly, that is love. Even if you don’t talk and still want to hear that one person talking endlessly, that is love. When you talk to that one person and you feel like home, that is love, love in your veins.

You believing that this relationship can go beyond love, that is love now. When you do not give a fuck about what your best friends have to say about the person you love and still spend time with that human, that is how we date now. You realize that distance kills you slowly every single day because you cannot kiss or even look at your sweetheart, that is how we date now. You still want to go on and be killed everyday ‘coz you’ve found your weird soul, that is how we date now. Even if you are not going to be with that person forever but you still wish to spend those beautiful moments with that person for the longest period possible, those are dates now.

When you think of her when you’re watching shooting stars all night, that is love now. Even when you don’t get a reply to your text message asking that person when they are arriving and you still wait endlessly, that is love now. When you wish to do things that you love with that attractive mortal, that is love now.


Even if you do not understand what that soul is trying to tell you and you still write back to her saying what you had to say, that is what love can be now. You probably not replying after seeing this but me still wanting to write all the more to you, that is love now.

In many human ways we feel and we realize what love is, what love can be, what love should be. Why are we still scared and why do we still stop ourselves from saying and doing things imagining that you would end up losing that person? Maybe, my love, this is how we live now.

Maybe all these things will never make sense to you. Maybe you and I will become “we” soon and we will be so awesome that its more than people, texts and photographs about our love now. Maybe we will grow farther than closer after me writing this now. Does that mean we stop believing in love, our love now?

via Thought Catalog


The Happy Nerd

Every soul goes through a phase where he realizes and believes that truth is always the last thing that should be spoken. All of us have experienced the phase in which, any of your doings are backfired and you just wish to stop talking and hide away from the entire world. Everyone from a child to an adult understands and believes about existence of God and his nature of taking care of us humans. But when we really need Him, he does not appear or help us by any means.  Everybody has wondered about themselves being happy but not understanding where it lies! These words are just an expression to a few similar feeling and situations.

The Happy Nerd

Oh why Lord do I suffer!
Why is it that I cry, whenever I seek well?
Is it a difficult journey or an unnecessary path,
Is it for the good or is it for the bad!

Oh why Lord do I feel that I suffer!
Why is it that I don’t understand the truth for happiness?
Is my mind still underdeveloped or was it trained wrong,
Is it my sins in the past or is did I do something wrong since born?

Oh why Lord do I suffer!
Why is it that I cannot hide the truth inside me?
Is it because I don’t understand people or is it because I believe in being burden-free,
Is it because I’m pure-hearted or is it just a delusion?

Oh why Lord is happiness away from me!
Why is it that even after I realize the truth, my conscience does not accept it?
Is it because I believe that you exist or is it because I believe that honesty is Your path,
Is it because I am weak or is it because You are!

Oh Lord, Why!

I Never Want Love, I Never Do

Another Alive Soul walks with a broken heart and kicks himself for falling in love. Believing that love never existed and never ever will, he talks to himself:

Lover Among Whores

I dont want this now, I never do

The name of love again, never in my books

Cries in vain now very few

I never want love, I never do


Its better to be a whore

Than being stamped on the heart

The pain is much lesser

The heart;  not a toy


Promising of pure love

Still taking you down again

A whore not having hopes

Living in the misery of her own


I dont want this now, I never do

The name of love again never in my books

Cries in vain now very few

I never want love, I never do


Why the fake love

Why the false needs

If you still live with yourself

Then why walk through a different belief


Sweetness a top priority

Treament of all kinds is primary

Killing me with a bleeding wound

Rendering to change my destiny


I dont want this now, I never do

The name of love again never in my books

Cries in vain now very few

I never want love, I never do


Dissolving myself everyday

Again rising from the sun

Being the salt of bitterness

Still being the blamed one


Rotting the brain in thoughts of thee

Spinning with a high that never can sleep

Darkness residing all around me

Trying to walk while bleeding to death


I dont want this now, I never do

The name of love again never in my books

Cries in vain now very few

I never want love, I never do

Rest Your Soul On The Clouds Of Rain

All of us console ourselves to calm down at some point in life. This is just another moment where another alive soul is asking himself to be calm but still influential. Calling himself to be like a cloud and absorb its qualities. “Clouds brought Life to earth and clouds of fire will perish it.” He goes on and talks to himself:

The Only Cloud

Hey, child!

Rest your soul on the clouds of rain, child

You shall absorb the qualities of floating in the air

Above all, but still can be reached


Changing states to survive beautifully

and look so pretty around falling hearts

Attracting a child to letting gods emerge

like ice on the cream and the sparkle of diamond


Its all in the air, its all inside you

You’re the one, amongst the few

Be yourself and not the crew

Yes, you’re the one, amongst the few


Watching the world but still being a part

Looking blue within the white

A part of you making the earth survive

From the hearts to the bullock cart


Your arrival appeasing and displeasing

Calm you float still not shining bright

Be the child with no fight

Dissolve in air without a glitch


Its all in the air, its all inside you

You’re the one, amongst the few

Be yourself and not the crew

Yes, you’re the one, amongst the very few!


So are you and so are we,

Born of mud, in the solar tree

Be unaffected by the falling tongue

Clean their sins by pouring once


You are though a cold-hearted deed

Come against the desires of them to meet

Give yourself when they deserve to

But still be below and let the Gods appear!


Its all in the air, its all inside you

You’re the one, amongst the few

Be yourself and not the crew

Yes, you’re the one, amongst the very few!


It Either Makes You Or Breaks You

All the experienced people know that a relationship cannot be very simple and straight; especially the relationship in which you genuinely love your partner more than anything. Why does ‘expressing true feelings’ get you into complications, isn’t it necessary for a healthy relationship? Why do we always have to give fake smiles to keep the true love alive, isn’t it delusional? Where are the scripts which say that something called true love exists and it lasts forever even when people die, is it just a bedtime story? When can you actually say that it is true love, does it really exist? How do we express true love, aren’t flowers and gifts just some formulae?

We tend to make a big deal out of our relationship by asking all the above questions to the walls, don’t we? Well, yes, we really do! But In the end, we kick the same wall for not answering our questions. We tend to forget that walls might have ears, but they do not have a mouth to talk.

All of us have a nice guy hiding inside us. This guy suddenly makes a debut when you fall in (true) love. He not only takes away your evil senses but also puts you in a cataleptic state towards reality. This post is for all the Mr. Nice Guy(s) out there. The story goes as follows.

There was 10 year old little kid who was not aware of the evil world. He was always to be bullied by his class mates in school. He hated it. He hated going to school. He would run and hide from these bullies all the time and sometimes even after school while he came out to play on the cricket field. The main reason behind him being bullied was his innocence. He would tell people if their pants were dirty from behind and he would get wacked from them because they thought that he was trying to tease them. He would also get ragged for picking the ball up and throwing it back on the field thinking that the bullies won’t rag him if he helped them. He would get yelled at by the teachers in class for trying to pick up the dropped pencil of the guy sitting on the next bench. But, this helpfulness gave him no good. He grew up being bullied by people now and then, here and there!

One fine day, he met a girl who liked his innocence. She found his helpfulness very rare and attractive. This little kid who was once being ragged and bullied was now very attracted to a person who liked his innocence. He thought of nothing else but of  her. He would write her name on almost everything he had. Everything from his wallet to his bag was bearing her name. They hung out, they had fun and they were having the most awesome times of their lives.

Love Ducks

After a while, he loved her more than anything on this planet. He told her all his secrets. He shared every single thing with her. But that was not convincing enough for the sweet relationship to last. His innocence could not let him understand the girl’s need. She was never happy with him after a point of time. She could not take him with just an ‘I Love you more than anything’ tag. He always wondered about this strange behavior of the girl. It was the stage where the girl couldn’t stand him for being so foolishly in love with her. She wanted to feel good. She wanted something more than someone just the loving. She wanted to feel special and all his love was not enough for that. She left blaming him of not keeping her happy.

He was shocked. He felt as if a truck has run over him while he was crossing the road. Exactly! He felt dead. He didn’t have a life anymore. He would just sit in one corner of his room all day. He strolled, procrastinated and existed like a stone on the river bank. He was back to his misery after the girl walked away from his life.

After a few days of his depression, he got agitated with the fact that he is not a football which can be kicked all the time. He decided to learn what makes people cool and acceptable. As he saw around him, people would lie for their benefits; other dudes around him always flattered girls with cars and bikes and a whole lot of expensive stuff. Now, he stared doing that too. He had almost a decade of suffering and anger inside him which slowly turned into revenge.

It was not very soon that people around him started liking him. He was always wanted as a company on every occasion. He had learnt the tricks of the trade of being around people. After the long suffering-tenure came another part of his life – the smart one. He now knew how to talk to and impress people. He had now understood that, people are happy if you say nice things about them but, they don’t like you if are being genuine. May it be helping or expressing genuinely, it never works is what he had learnt. He henceforth always used the right words, did the right things made people feel the right way. But, it was all from his mind and not from his heart. He found his life better by using his mind against using the heart to live.

He lived happily ever after.